False Evidence Appearing Real

30Day Challenge: My Fears

Strange one: My knee giving out from under me. I think I’ve mentioned this before. It’s weird. 

I’ve had my knees twist out in the freakiest way at different times and that shit hurtttttttttttttt like hell!!!  So ever so often I’d have flash backs to the times it happened and literarily get the shivers or sometimes I’m walking/going down stairs or escalators/doing whatever…I’d suddenly remember and make a conscious effort to slow down and pay attention to where I’m walking or what I’m doing lest I twist my knee. I silently pray I don’t do something to hurt myself so bad that I’d need metal plates or screws to keep my knee intact or not be able to walk :(. #ThisShitCray!!

Common one: Getting to the end of my life without having fulfilled my ‘purpose’ although it feels like I’m chasing shadows and the more I chase this ‘idea’ of purpose the more it eludes me and the more frustrated and depressed I am. Just not knowing…ugh!! Guess I should probably stop worrying about that and just live huh? See, we make life complicated. #Iknowthis!

Semi-Common one: Becoming a parent- most of my friends ooh and aah about how they can’t wait to moms and I usually have a blank stare…like really? Some parents do their best and kids turn out crazy, some do their worst and kids turn out great. It just feels like such pressure to be responsible for some ones life and there is no instruction manual. I don’t think I’ll be a bad mum and when I think about the future I ‘see’ a husband and kids but I do sometimes wonder if the fact that I’m not longing [not to be confused with wondering if wasting eggs every month will come back and bite me in the butt] for kids is ‘telling’. The fact that I’ve never really had to live with kids or be around them [like babysitting] probably has something to do with it too. Well, here’s to hoping what they say about maternal instincts kicking in once there is a bun in the oven is true...until then salute!

 I thot i'd have at least a couple more but can't think of anything else so a few randoms then, ey?

I kinda [wasn’t really paying attention] saw ‘Unstoppable’ and umm…could this be the wackest Denzel movie yet or do I need to really watch it?

Watching Youtube videos [read: Naija movies] directly from[/thru/on?] my TV is pretty darn neat!

If a dude wore a nose ring today we’d all call him gay…Pac rocked a nose ring. 

Naija weddings in America >>Naija weddings in Lagos. Granted I’ve only been to couple of wedding in naija but I just don’t think they go as hard as we do here. Here receptions last till midnight and such. In Naija they end at 7/8 meaning no gbedu/after party….what with security issues and such. Maybe I just haven’t attended a ‘better’ one sha.

Should an invite have been extended regardless of response? I can't decide how i feel about it *shrugs*

Riddle me this: I love Chai Tea but my chai tea tastes NOTHING like the ones I get from starbucks…the thing is- We use the EXACT same thing. They do nothing more than dump the Tazo chai tea thingymijig in the cup…heat up the 2% milk and dump that in the cup and viola $3:48. Surely its not the milk warmer/foamer thingy that makes it taste different is it?? :-/

Are most [black] basketball wives hoodrats?? I thought Miami was bad….LA is just ridic. Pure Ratcheness!!! Dang. [okay, Its scripted and they getting paid...So it’s okay? I think not]. At least the Miami ladies were fine...these ones are not AND have such nasty attitudes. Ugh!

Buahahahahah…Hosea to Tia: “how much weight did you gain…50LBS??? Your baby is only only going to take up 6 of those lbs.” LMAO that cracked me the hell up but I was like gaddam ain’t that the truth!! Damn.

...and that's all she wrote! It's a holiday weekend. What's everyone up to? Whatever it is, have fun and be safe. 

It's a new month.....make it a great one, Folks!!

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Time Expired...

30day Challenge: "To the Ex"

You know, when I thought about it this, I knew exactly what I was going to say to this particular ex. I was going to say:

“Where you have sown love, may you reap love. Where you have sown deceit, may you reap deceit”

Not that there is anything entirely false about the above statement. Its a factual pronounciation :D...but it does imply that there was deciet.

But then I read an article that struck a cord with me [at the time] especially this:

“You had projected onto me everything you ever desired in a woman and I projected onto you everything I ever desired in a man.” TheMost- SBM crew

And I thought…Maybe, just maybe, this is where WE went wrong…[See how nice i am? i'm even willing to share the blame...hehe. J/K]

…and who could blame us really? We had the right recipe to cook up the projections. It’s no wonder when the dust settled I realized what I felt the most [not only but more than anything] was colossal disappointment…not just that it didn’t work out but that you weren’t who I thought you were and/or who I wanted you to be after all.

Or maybe this just helped me sleep better at night? Lmao.

Ah well, whatever the case…

We live, We Love…We Learn!!

I would also say-----Be Well!

#MovingOn

Random is as Random does…

Random compliment from strangers are nice :). I was in the wine aisle at the grocery store, dude walking by stops and say “your hair is absolutely gorgeous”. I walked out the store with a lil extra ‘cat’ in my walk. Lol!! Oh I had my hair pulled back in a big ole afro puff/bun

“Oh I pray to him everynight but looks like they all go to voicemail”- Arlene(?) #trueblood. You shonuff ain’t lying cos that’s the way I feel sometimes.

The more time passes, the more confusing life gets. One would think the older one gets the more one gets a hang of this here life…Not!!

My car is looking all brand spanking new-ish!! I’m pleased with my decision.

I wonder how many weddings are taking place on 09/10/11

“Most of us find ourselves readjusting our perspectives on sex as quickly as the seasons readjust. Sometimes we’re all about it, sometimes we’re saving it, and sometimes we want no parts of it.”

“State University of New York finds that sex has the same affect on brain receptors as the pain relieving medicine paracetamol “…men should put this on a placard on a wall in their bedrooms for when their women use the ‘I have a headache’ excuse. Lol.

TheEnd.com

So that whole ‘You are what you attract’ is Bullshit…right? Rightttttttt?? Cos the ‘walk-ups’ I’ve encountered lately...Hia! in fact na to jump off cliff oh. I'm speaking soley about looks by the way.

"Believing in God is not the same as having faith in God. Anyone can say they believe….Faith requires Action." Hmmm.

I've quite enjoyed doing nothing to my hair for a couple of months but i think i'm ready for some braids. I haven't had kinky twists in a while...i should get some.

We've come over the hump of the week y'all...the weekend is almost here!!! Whoop!! Whoop!! you would think i had huge plans oh...pfft. Lol.

It is hot as hell around these parts...sweating like a christmas goat is only allowed in Naija...this mess is unacceptable!! Anyhooooos, u'all enjoy the rest of the week and have a fab weekend.


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Two In One!

I feel like a lazy post so...

30day Challenge- My version!

I mostly let my iTouch/iTunes shuffle anyway unless i really want to listen to a particular album. Is it weird that I hardly skip songs even if i don't particularly want to hear the song? I just let it play knowing it'd be over soon...or flip radio stations when ads and such come on cos a min longer and a song will be back on? No, right? that's what i thought. lol.

"Let the Music play on...":

Miss you- Kem

Power- Kanye West

No lele- Wizkid

Kpo kpo di- Faze

Welcome to the east – Wyclef Jean

Treat U good – Lloyd

Wild wild west- M.I

Revelation song- Kari Jobe

ABC- DJ Klem ft Willy Bang

Beautiful Lasers (2ways) ft. MDMA- Lupe Fiasco

I forget what the title of this should be from the challenge but sha sha you get the idea...

"H2T-Head2Toe":

Hair in a twist out

Big Pearl earrings

Brown 3/4 sleeve Cardigan

White sleeveless top

Self-made skirt from a couple of posts ago

Newly acquired animal print peep-toe pumps

Yellow handbag/purse

...this would have been my church outfit IF i had actually gone to church today so no picture. LOL!! I opted to web-church instead. Sermon was good too :D

*If only she had said Yes to Rehab-so young, so talented,...........so Gone!! May she find rest.

Have a great week ahead you all.

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"Bullet your whole day"

So i said i would try to get in on the 30 day challenge thingy..."my way" but the more i looked at the challenge the less i felt like doing it lol. Anyways, I was still up at about 3am this morning and for whatever reason this came to mind...i made a mental note to pay attention to my activities today and use it as my first one...lets hope its not the last. If it is...well, i sha did one hehe.

3am-ish- I was still up, i have no idea when i finally went to sleep
8:15ish- I opened my eyes and looked at the time. Fristly, it didn't feel like i had slept. Felt like my eyes were just closed the whole time...no real sleep. Secondly and Even weirder, i woke up with a tear-stained face. I can't for the life of me remember what it was that made me cry in my 'half sleep'...strange!
[I stayed in bed for sometime...dillying and dallying]
11:10ish- Phone conference with the siblings
12:30ish- I finally got out of bed. Straigthened up a few things. Had breakfast. Faff'd around some more
2pm-ish- [just as i was ready to jump in the shower] A friend called. Good convo.
3:15ish- Finally got off the phone and into the shower
[messing with my hair took some time]
4:00ish- I was ready to leave the house. I wanted to see about getting that sewing machine. The one palce i had been thinking was the spot was a disappointment. So still no machine :(
4:15ish- Set out to see an Old HS friend
5:00ish- Got there had lunch and settled down to gist...chillax...alldatjazz!
9:00ish- She finally allowed me leave
9:45ish- Went grocery shopping [i knew i wouldn't feel like doing it tomorrow]
10:20ish- Got home
[trying to decided if should eat something or not...its so late]
10:50ish- Started typing this post


...and there you have it!

My fourth was pretty good. Good food, Good people, plenty laughs....fireworks was bonus. My weekend has been pretty good so far too. Hope uall are having a swell one.

Uall be EeeeeeeeeZzzzzzzzzzzz!!!

...got distracted

11:10pm- Now clicking "Publish Post" :D

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