On getting older...

…yea its one of em nights…sleep has been doing shakara since like 11 pm. Well screw you sleep, I don’t need ya punk ass!!

I have a friend that used to cry…as in bawl on her bday every year because she didn’t like the fact that she was getting older…I’m talking about when we were15/16 lol…wonder if she cries blood now. I was just thinking about this getting older business because its about that time again...and well, i can't sleep.

I’ve never really been one to be depressed about getting older, its inevitable so why sweat it? Sides the other option isn’t very palatable. I've always been mentally 'older' anyways...growing up, i was one of the younger ones in my crew and i fit right in. I felt 16 before i turned 16, felt 21 before i actually hit the age so when all the big milestone bdays came along they were nyeh cos my mind was there already. The tables have kinda turned now sha and i'm not sure how i feel about the mentally 'older' thing lol...i digress

The older one gets the more reflective one becomes or should become. Are goals being set? Are they being met? Where is one’s life headed? Is there a plan? And all that other ‘responsible’ stuff …So I’ve been reflecting and boy lemme tell ya! It’s real easy to get sucked into a dark place [lol] but allowing that will make me an ungrateful wench cos truth be told I have lived and have a blessed life.

Everyone has a different plan and it is quite retarded to be comparing you to anyone else. You see how far someone has come and you wonder why it seems they have it so easy but you have no idea what their struggles were/are. There is a Yoruba adage that says “ma fi ago alago sise” –Don’t use someone else’s clock to do your work. We’re all running on different schedules, the fact that it ain’t happening for you like you think it should doesn’t mean God has forgotten you.

A new year [Every birthday is your own personal new year] should be a time to re-evaluate, re-organize, rejuvenate yourself, re-focus, be thankful, work on being content, and continue with the life you have been given to live. Personally, I need to work on the whole "being content" thing. I’m always feeling like I haven't done enough or I’m not doing enough and I’m somehow wasting the time I’ve been given…just pretty much discontent with where I am and what I’m doing and alladat. But you know what? I’m exactly where I need to be, doing exactly what I should be doing and in the event that I am not…the one that knows all will change my course...somehow.

They say with age comes wisdom. Is that really true? One would think so huh? Or at least one would pray so. But omo there are very many old, rather daft people roaming around so I dare say that aging isn’t an antidote for/to wisdom…so what is?

How does one gain/acquire wisdom?

Is it the older brother of common sense that everyone is expected to just have but seeing as it really isn’t common not everyone has it? It is in information gathering and making one’s self well versed on a variety of issues and life topics? Is it either? Both? Neither?

I found this: “To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness,…” –Eccl 2:26

Oluwa o, look at the time....chei

Have a good day people

*Muah*