Yep! It's hit home alright

Got the call. I have till the end of the month to find something or it's bye-bye. There's a relo option but then i have to find something in that area first...on my own. At this point i really don't even feel like doing anything but i REALLY hate interviews arghhhhhhh. Ah well. God has come through for me before...we'll see how it pans out. As before, i'll let everyone know when there is something to know. Why? I don't know...guess i just don't want the daily questions and 'encouraging' words...i fear that just might bring about a depression i don't need right now. ....even my family will find out when there's something to tell.

Yearly Physical...
No matter how many times i have this thing done it still feels a little awkward each time. Even though my Doc, the MA, and i usually laugh and carry on while he prods and press and stuff it's still awkward as heck. My doc is cool oh but i'm starting to think he's not the most thorough doc. He's just become rather scattered, it seems. Plus each time i see him it looks like his belly is hanging a little lower below his belt. Like really, how much faith should one have in a person who can't even maintain their own weight? How are you going to advise me on how to lose weight when you can't even do it? Guess its kinda like how docs are the worst smokers, huh?...*shakes head*

Speaking of weight, i need to lose some serious weight. I keep telling myself i don't eat bad but something must be off cos i have packed on the pounds and weight gain, they say, is all in ones caloric intake. I say i don't eat 'bad' cos my diet consists of pretty much the same thing...and as far as calories are concerned i don't think i'm exceeding my norm...but how then do i explain the gain? I long for the days when i maintained a certain weight +/- 5lbs :( :(

Even when i was on my working out grind [i haven't been on that grind much lately] i didn't notice much of a difference which frustrated me into not even trying anymore. Or i'd notice a difference but heaven forbid i miss 2 weeks of gyming and my body just reverts to its old self and its like i never worked out...running a mile then feels like trying to run up a hill. Quite depressing i tell you!!

...here is to getting back on it! Let's see how this round goes


**I'm breaking out something serious...puberty passed ages ago oh! Yuck!!


*Sigh*


*Muah*